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2004-07-15T13:45:00.000+08:00

man.. been a long time since i last blog! fuckin hell blog givin me darn blogs.. life has been great! love my SCH PEEPS and HIM! evil grin.. wat can i say.. i tink ive changed.. got a new image! cut my hair, pierce my ear.. and i trimmed my eyebrow! SURPRISE! SURPRISE! alrights. im in sch now! ciaos! *phew*

2004-07-03T16:13:00.000+08:00

its been nearly a month since i last blog! started sch alrdy! sch is great! everyone is great! made many new frens! but.. every night ive been cryin myself to slp.. not eatin for days.. watever.. does anyone can? ive no idea! does he care? i dunoe.. hw much i love him.. hw much i call for him.. does he noe? i dun tink so.. hes always with his frens and church stuff.. wen can i ever be with him? wen can i ever meet him? tellin myself to be strong and all? i cant do it! i can be strong on da outside but.. on da inside! im WEAK! and finally i cant talk! ive completely lost my voice! darn badly! but does he noe? ive no idea!
went to take lotsa neo prints with my frens fr sch durin our break! was so darn nice! den went back sch! next i chiong town to look for bag! man so many nice bags!
feelin really light headed now! lost my voice and fever! tats all folks!

2004-06-18T19:57:00.000+08:00

Wow, time files darn fast man! Went for tricia’s and patrick’s weddin!! Man.. its like darn grand lo! Balloons were everywhere! Hiaks! Oh yeahs, den my make up one of their fren help me do.. my hair is done by jasmine’s sis sandy. Bout 5 plus, jordie came.. and he changed into his shirt tat I borrowed from patrick. Man he look darn smart k! I like! Everyones dressin was like superb on dat day!! *STUNNIN*
Went for my orientation yest! Man it stinks to da max! super borin.. left half way and went to meet jordie! Got my timetable alrdy! Is like darn bad. Mon till 3, tues and wed till 12, thurs till 5, fri till 4. sigh.. how can I meet my jordie? Nvm! I will find time to meet him! Heez
Went wild wild wet with jordie today! Was like so super fun! And now Im like a lobster! Darn bad k. whole back burnin like shit! Anyhows, wow! Da entrance fee is like 12.50.. but is kinda worth while.. cuz I kinda enjoy it! Lalalalalala.. hmmm, today is my 3 day.. so I took da risk of goin to da pool.. nth happened till we gonna play da last game and leave.. luckily no one see! Whahha! Oops! Winks. After we wash up and all, we walk to da nearby hawker to eat.. den jordie went church I came home!
Today is da day! Is da day jordie and I been together for 6 months! Juz wanna say I love u darling.. and tat I will always be by your side. *Muacks muacks* hugs

HAPPY SIXTH MONTH ANNIVERSARY!*I LOVE YOU*

2004-06-14T12:02:00.000+08:00

been a long time since i last blog. darn busy recently and seriously have no mood at all! darn! wat da hell.. i puked yest! sigh. tats a bad sigh! i tink detox seriously rocks! but gotta have self control! jus woke up not long.. talked to jordie on da phone for a while den he went back to slp again! oh wow! tml is tricia's weddin! so excitin!! heez!! gotta wake up super early tml, meet my bros fren den go her house together! cant wait for jordie to come! hee! alrights tat i tink tats bout it! oh yeahs i went to eat ice cream on sat at eastwood! man! da ice cream rocks man!! will bring u peeps there somday! wink! ciaos

2004-06-05T13:53:00.000+08:00

hmmm, home slackin and waitin.. for him to wake up! suppose to meet him but hes slpin now! FREAKS! head spinnin round and round! BOO! goin church later den tricia's plce for some meetin thingy! yawns! have not eaten yet! hungry! guess im gonna keep on waitin till its time for church eh! piangs

2004-06-03T16:46:00.000+08:00

hmmm, went to watch day after tml with jordie! winks! after tat i came home and rot! whahaha!! now doin nth!!
anyways yest, went to meet jenn for lunch at cwp. after tat met kenny at raffles. acc jenn to work! omg! wen we were at barkers inn, i found out tat esther was actually workin there! she din rem my name!! and thought tat fr da start im called debbie as ive got da debbie face! heez.. den after work, esther. kenny and i slack as barkers inn for like 4 to 5 hours.. simply juz talk craps! after tat i went to find my mom. and da rest went home!! jordie went to find his mom den went to his childhood fren place! whahaah.. man! tats all folks! winks
today is STEF AND JIA YING'S BDAE!!
HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN BABES! winks!

2004-06-01T15:37:00.000+08:00

yest was jordies bdae! heez! went his place.. wow!! yest was BOYS NIGHT OUT EH! left half way as i went dinner with jasmine and co! heez..
today is da da first day of JUNE! tat means im starin sch real soon! sigh.. anyways. jus came back. went marche with jordie! gave him a bdae treat! heez! till now im still so full! haha.. after tat went esplanade den went home.. yawns.. feelin slpin again! tats all folks! winks

2004-05-30T18:05:00.000+08:00

my eyes are closin in any min! juz got break camp not long ago! was so super duper fun lo! though boys were so cute and funny! heez!! dun see em so small size.. but man. deyre super strong man!! and deyre not tat kinda pri sch whiners! *THUMBS UP* anyways jordie bdae is tml!! freaks!! short of time! help! anyways juz wanna wish him a happy 15TH bdae. love you lotsa darlin! alrights. gettin out of here alrdy! freakin slpy!! WHOLE BODY IS FULL WITH MOSQUITO! hahah.. cant blame. sweet blame la! winks

2004-05-28T12:10:00.000+08:00

hmmm, yet another day!! man! super duper borin! yawns! gonna meet kenny kor later at parkway.. gotta catch a play later at marine parade cc! sigh.. jordie cant go with me!! guess hes slpin rite now eh! missin him like crazy! tink im bonkers over him! evil grin! tml early mornin, goin to help out in queen jasmine camp den after tat gonna catch a movie with jordie den go back for da camp again! haha!! man!! my time is super pack tml!! not like today! yawns.. darn slacky! whahha.. alrights den gotta go prepare myself and eat!! freaks! jordie bdae is onli in 3 days time! oh no!! arghhhh

2004-05-27T16:05:00.000+08:00

juz got home not long!! went to meet jordie for a while den he went home!! heez.. missin him liek crazy man.. had lunch with him at bk, den went to collect his card. after tat he came over to my place to collect da photos den went back!! oh no!! his bdae is like in 4 days time!! short of time!! help help!! sobs.. love you darlin! winks ;)

2004-05-27T11:14:00.000+08:00

juz recieve a letter fr tp.. sigh!! my camp is on da 17th to da 18th of june.. fuck it la.. dun feel like goin at all!! im ALONE!! darn fustratin.. da camp is go by department one!! DRATS!! wat da fuck is da orientation camp bout man! lookin back, i started to hate myself and regretted tat i din study hard enough! guess is too late sayin tat alrdy eh! feelin darn fucked up nowadays.. sigh!! wat to do! tis life i guesS!

2004-05-26T12:43:00.000+08:00

wat da hell.. im watch happy tree frens now!! whahahah. stupid blog.. cant see my latest entries at all!! darn darn

2004-05-26T11:50:00.000+08:00

wow! im home alone again! not goin anywhere as im savin money for jordie's bdae present!! freaks.. his bdae is like in 5 more days!! oh no!! PANIC!! alrdy got him something but dunnoe whether will he like it.. charlene's play is comin up, bb camp, manda's concert and jordie's bdae. after tat, sch is gonna start for me! sigh. missin everyone like crazy. frenz all workin cant go out with em.. darlin havin field trip today cant go out with him! so guess gotta stay home today eh!! heez.. love you jordie! muacks!! sherwin kor!! hurry get ur ass back la!! winks

2004-05-25T10:56:00.000+08:00

man.. time flies.. whhaha.. gettin lazy each other.. hahahah. anyways im 17. man! im old..
yest, went sentosa with jordan, godma, sandy, their mom, timothy and charity. had so much fun man!! heez.. played with da 2 kids.. dey are so cute.. heez.. den timothy started ticklin me fr behind. whahhaha.. tis da first time i seen jordan carryin kids!! so sweet.. nearly melt rite in front of him!! whahahah.. da kids love him too!! heezz
last of all, i would i like to thank JORDAN, JASMINE, TRICIA, ELAINE, MY BRO, AND MANDA for givin me da surprise on my bdae! winks

2004-05-19T12:15:00.000+08:00

another day.. yawns. nightmare!! dreamt of something so so bad tat i kept on cryin and cryin.. till my pillow went wet!! sigh! seriously hope tat it wont happened!! *phew*
nth much.. juz plain bored.. nth to do at all.. bro was super moody since yest.. dunnoe wat happened. mom told me he had chest pain again!! uh huh.. ;( anyways, wheres jordie?? hes in school.. missin him so badly.. though is like less den a day i met him. anyways someone is comin over later. whahahh.. guess who?? jordie?? yeahs.. and one more person!! whhaha. tink im goin nuts real soon man.. *BURP* man.. i smell like durian.. heez.. ate em for breakfast juz now!! whhhee..
tink tats bout it man.. gotta go bathe.. i stink!! REAL BAD!!!

2004-05-18T18:33:00.000+08:00

hmmm, juz got home not long.. winks!! went lunch with tricia, jasmine and jordie.. was fun!! he lightened up da atmosphere! heez.. after tat we went city link to see phone den went peni. to see shoes.. after tat went home.. as my jordie is tired! heez.. GOOD NEWS.. MY FREAKIN HELL MENSES CAME.. anyways.. he sent me home den he went back.. tats all folks.. gtg now!! ciaos!! i LOVE U DARLING! MUACKS

2004-05-18T11:10:00.000+08:00

freakin long nv blog.. lazy!! lets see, wats happenin to me all tis while eh!!
1. my fuckin menses haven come
2. my bdae is comin
3. my darlin bdae is comin
4. stef bdae comin
5. siz bdae comin
6. tricia's jie weddin comin..
7. nick kor bdae comin
anyways went jurong east swimmin complex with jordie yest.. whahaha.. darn funny and fun man!! heez!! kinda tanned but not really tanned!! played da slides, waves.. and all tat.. gotta go but shorts.. cuz da freakin life guard dun allow me to play.. wearin ziped up shorts! knn. after tat, went to da near by coffee shop to eat.. man!! jordie is really growin man.. he eats ALOT! heez. he sent me to yishun den went back..
today! gonna meet auntie jasmine later to pass her some stuff. den gonna meet jordie.. maybe she joinin us back later again.. not sure yet.. den manda finish her class at 8 so cant meet us.. heeez.. his bdae COMIN..

2004-05-09T19:13:00.000+08:00

today is MOTHERS' DAY!! winks.. -yawns- but still im dragged out of da bed.. to attend church early in da morin.. darn ass.. after church, went to give avril tuition den went to meet my jordie.. heez.. he came my place for a while den we went swimmin.. was fun.. but sigh nv bring goggles.. den cant swim.. cuz my contacts will drop out!! shit.. went to da medium pool soak ourselves den he went to swim.. i juz sat there and bake myself! anyways goin tannin tml with queen jas. heez.. now jordie is havin mothers day dinner with his fam at some restuarant located at tanjong pagar! -evil grin-

COUNT DOWN TO MY BDAE.. 15 more days. ;)

2004-05-05T20:45:00.000+08:00

juz now went to meet jordie, wei xian an jenn.. went to watch dawn of da death.. but xian nv watch.. was darn bloody and lotsa F language.. but was nice though.. heez.. "there's no space in hell, therefore they come to earth..." sweet... whahahha.. anywys after tat, acc jenn to work.. she seems kinda distracted and not very focus today though is her bdae.. tink shes missin wei jun like crazy man.. hmmm, slack at barkers inn.. after which went yishun with jordie to meet ed and get her history text. is my darlin first paper tml.. all da best k.. u can do it.. muacks. i love u.

2004-05-05T12:14:00.000+08:00

oh.. yest was darn FUNNY!! went to meet jordie, have lunch den went esplanade.. went library to study.. jordie dun wanna concentrate on his studies.. den i took my huge black marker and put near his face.. heez.. but after tat he still did study la.. heeez.. guess more or less some things went into his head.. haha.. den went to find jenn at one fullerton.. i tot darn far so jordie and i took da cab.. bloody hell... da meter onli jump 10 cents.. see alrdy i sian 1/2.. i gotta pay 4.50 after tat cuz peak hour and erp.. hhaahha.. cant get over it till now.. went bakers inn to get strawberry tart.. and while eatin, jordie and i were makin fun of it da whole time.. whahahha... it cost 4.50 TOO!! shit man
its jenns bdae today.. gonna with her later!! heez.. now jordie in sch.. jenn out with pris.. me.. at home.. stonin.. im a STONER

2004-05-03T13:46:00.000+08:00

im back since thursday mornin.. din really got da time to write cuz i was busy catchin up with stuff. wat can i say, is so great to be back home! -yawns- slpt at 530 last night and i juz woke up not long.. feelin sick man.. jet lag startin all over again.. later jordie comin over for revision! 2 more days is jenn bdae.. wat shld i get for her?? sniff sniff.. wheee.. i dun stink but guess im gonna bathe sooon man.. gotta go church real soon too.. been like donkey weeks since i juz went.. oh yeahs guess im sacked for no freakin reasons!! *JOBLESS* startin sch in june at tp.. takin up moblie and wireless computin.. shall see hw things go man.. alrights den gonna bathe!! tats all folks.

2004-04-27T19:01:00.000+08:00

im now in da library again!! usin da internet tat cost 14 bucks for 3 freakin hours!! din bother to go shoppin today at all!! darn sick!! heard tat now there's sars in beijing eh!! hmmm, hw i wish im infected by it!! juz die and forget bout everything.. sigh.. im missin him real bad! hes away now.. wen can i talk to him?? wen can i see him?? will he wanna see me?? ive no idea.. he sound kinda busy.. tats great!! winks.. im missin him badly!! weird thoughts kept on floodin my mind!! but wen i tink back, i tink im hell of a childish!! *TRUST* tats da word i told myself.. trust him and everything will be great eh! sigh.. lovesick?? i tink so.. sigh
hw i wish i can meet him wen i come back! sigh.. can i meet him?? will he be busy?? sigh..

2004-04-24T19:43:00.000+08:00

im now in europe!! fell sick! fever, cough, runnin nose and juz found out tat my stomach gto prob! does anyone even care?? sigh.. im missin him badly! i cry at times afraid tat i will lose him and tat hes feelins for me have faded.. sigh.. always feelin ALONE and LOST! wat is he doin and hw is he.. sigh..
finally i can use da com as my mom is shoppin!!
super borin over here! nth to do!!! things here darn ex!!! cant compare to spore!! i wan JORDIE!!! i NEED him!!! i LOVE HIM!!! ARGHHH!!!! MISSIN YOU BADLY

2004-04-12T12:33:00.000+08:00

hmmm, today is my last day in spore! my flight is at nine plus in da evenin.. sigh
but in da afternoon, will be meetin my darlin jordie.. seein him da last time till im back on da 29 early in da mornin!! gonna miss him very vadly man!! sigh.. but no matter wat, will still try my best to msg him! heez!! cant live without him man!! 18 days may seems short for others but it aint for me!! darlin.. oh darlin.. love you always.. missin you very much.. somewhere out there, i will be lookin at da same sky as you!! cya later! muacks.
BERN LOVES JORDIE !

2004-04-11T20:48:00.000+08:00

today was great!! my darlin acc me da whole day today!! cuz tml night im flyin off.. sigh.. met jordie at cityhall.. den went.. to look at shoes and bag!! after tat went town to meet his fren otto!! man!! tat guy seriously look like edwina man!! heez.. afterwhich.. went heeren!! suddenly my darlin tot of gettin his tongur stud so we went queensway.. ahah.. was fun!! got his tingue stud but darn!! cant put in any longer!! therefore he decided to pierce it again!! heez.. rot at queensway till 6+ den went home.. he sent me home today!! heez.. spent time with him den he went home...
gonna fly off tml.. gonna miss everyone man!! esp jordie my darlin!! will miss you!! lovvve you lotsa!! -muacks-

2004-04-10T23:08:00.000+08:00

hey.. finally im bloggin again!! today was great!! jordie came and have breakfast with me early in da mornin!! was like darn touched lo! thanks darlin.. after tat went to take his specs! he love it alot man!! hiaks!.. den went to work!! he follow me too!! heee!! today's work was kinda okies onli la! some freakin taxi driver dun wanna fetch us!! wad da hell lo!! but overall every was okie!! but i still gotta thank my darlin!! for helpin me!! heez!! i love you! went faithworks to slack after tat.. den jordie went scgs for some church activity thingy!! hiaks hiaks!! lalalallalal....
in da evenin, i went esplanade to find my darlin jordie and my kors nick and kenneth.. hahaha.. was there for a while den gotta go and find my mom.. cuz my dad fetchin us back!! hmmm, tml goin out with my darlin!! heez!! thanks darlin for accompanyin me!! muacks!! tats all folks! winks

COUNTDOWN... 2 MORE DAYS!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHH

2004-04-07T07:45:00.000+08:00

now da time is 0745 in da mornin!! and wat da hell am i doin here!! fuck la! everyone is slpin now lo!! and im awake!! tats cuz i cant slp at all!! y i cant slp?? ive no idea too!! i juz pissed everyone off lo!! is like.. i tink im a jinx! pissed ppl of here and there!! never get anyhing right!! a plain old uselss BERN eh!! (everyone agrees!.. noddin their head) eyes are half open but i simple cant get to slp.. -yawns- swollen eyes.. starin in space!! and *light bulbs appear* i get it!! cuz ive no brain!! tats y wen i talk or do anythin it doesnt go through my brain!!

COUNTDOWN.. 5 MORE DAYS.. anyone care?? i dun tink so as i said everyone get pissed off by lookin at me!

2004-04-07T07:09:00.000+08:00

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can you please forgive me?? sigh.. i hate myself

2004-04-04T14:06:00.000+08:00

hmmm, guess i wont be meetin him after all.. he cant go out!! sigh..

2004-04-04T11:55:00.000+08:00

today, everyone woke up late, so nv go church! hez.. gonna meet my darlin.. but i tink hes still slpin.. hezz..
yest was darn fun!! went lido watched scooby doo 2 with my darlin jordie, went isetan to check out stuff!! man da mambo bag i wanted onli left white!! darn! slack around far east.. den we went heeren!! actually wanted to eat ice cream den da bloody gal was sayin.. er, cant you see were busy now.. we can serve you now!! like dudz!! dun wanna earn $$$ ar.. in da end we went marche!! heez.. da food there rocks man!! is like youre in heaven.. hez.. anyways, evan came to join us, and all of us went to meet jia ying, sharky and their fren. da most corny thingy is tat.. hell therere so many trans in town yest!! wow!! den 2 trans stared at my darlin.. at first he tot dey were gals.. but it turned out to be trans! he freaked out like hell man!! after jordie went scgs, evan and i went church!! reached there late as usual!! hahah.. after service went to eat.. den home sweet home!! heez

COUNTDOWN.. 9 MORE DAYS!! NOOOOO!!!!!!!!!

2004-04-03T10:19:00.000+08:00

so happy!! tis mornin i heard my darlin voice! heez.. later meetin jordie for awhile!! din meet him yest.. missin him like crazy man!! after tat he wil be goin for his church activity.. den i will be meetin evan and my bro.. head down church together!! darlin.. oh darlin.. missin him like crazy.. ive been havin pms recently man! darn!! hahah.. love you darlin! winks

COUNTDOWN.. 10 MORE DAYS.. darn ass.

2004-04-02T12:14:00.000+08:00

now in faithworks!! made tons of phone calls and hell.. cant get any shows yet!sigh.. my fringe is irritatin my eye man!! today is my first time goin to work so early man!! came to eat prata!! one egg one plain and ice tea chino! evil grin!
yest went cine with jordie.. watched da eye 2.. not really tat scary but onli da sound effect den is darn shockin!! den we went far east! god i saw my moms fren..and she act called and told my mom i was out with a guy! nahx.. nvm.. is a sonner or later thingy eh! listenin to planet shakers now!! nice..
later gonna go pasta mania with jasmine.. den gonna give tuition again.. 40 more mins and jordie will be out of sch!! cant meet him today!! miss you darlin! heeeez.. love you!

COUNTDOWN.. 11 MORE DAYS!! -drats-

2004-04-01T11:02:00.000+08:00

today is APRIL FOOL! heez!!! i tot no one rem but tis mornin i go tricked by jasmine (my god jie and jordan's god ma).. and i actually believe it lo! hell!! haha, goin cine later to meet jordie.. i miss him like hell.. hes now studyin.. stay focus k darlin.. dun slp.. heez
yest.. jordie came over to slack.. den after he went back, i went yjc to watch rugby match! RI vs SA.. and guess wat.. SA trash RI man.. wen i went there.. da final whistle was blown.. heez.. after which evan came over for dinner..
anyhow i feel like slpin again!! so ciaoz! i love you darlin! winks

COUNTDOWN.. 12 MORE DAYS.. sigh

2004-03-31T13:05:00.000+08:00

sigh! as usual cant use com!! heez.. past few days, was great! hang around in town, faithoworks, and slack around with jordie! -evil grin- juz cut my hair today!! now my hair looks normal!! finally man!! da other time was al in a mess!! goin europe soon! cant bear to leave spore man!! heh.. later jordie might be comin.. gonna coach him in his studies!! exams are near! study hard darlin! winks

2004-03-27T17:30:00.000+08:00

lalalallalalala.. blahs blahs!! im bored!! now in faithworks!! juz ended show.. gonna find jordie later!! so happy darn freakin long since i last saw him!! nth much!! my eyes darn painful!! i love JORDAN CHEW!!!

2004-03-26T11:47:00.000+08:00

i tink im super irritatin!! tats right!! hell darn irritatin!! darn myself!! i shld know tat im irritatin long ago!

2004-03-26T08:19:00.000+08:00

hmmm, din really slp last night! woke up at six plus.. log in. redo my darlin jordie blogskin as ive no idea y it appeared blank.. tink is my itchy hands as i went to touched it last night! -evil grin- now im done with his and im bloggin mine! hmmmm, never ever in my 16 plus years have i ever felt so in love before.. love.. you cant describe hw deep in love tat person or hw to express it out!! love.. my life is full of love!! hee!! and im not bullshittin!! its true!! wanna spend my life with him! hmmm, hes havin his sports day now! all da best jordie!! and really hopes he wins!! heez.. hmmm, gotta go get some rest now eh!! *yawns* i love you!

2004-03-25T19:17:00.000+08:00

juz got back fr work!! shit man.. i tink i sprained my arm!! darn pain now!! sigh.. anywayz wen im on my way to work, i saw my kor kenny.. he was juz standin infront of me and he din noe lo!! called his phone.. he took so long to pick up tat i nearly hang up.. but i din!! hahah..
was slackin da whole day at faithworks man!! -evil grin- Finally faithworks is goin jordies sch to perform!! yippy!! hiaks hiaks.. tml is your sports day.. good luck eh darlin.. all da best! you can do it yeahs!! smilez.. i love you! winks

2004-03-25T09:18:00.000+08:00

yeahs!! like usual i din get into early childhood! wow.. hw interestin.. now da onli thingy ti moblie and wireless computin!! luckily i appealed tat as my back up!! -cross my fingers- seriously hope tat i can get into tat! sigh.. both my jae and dae all not successful!! darn it man!! alrights if you wanna laugh juz laugh! ;/
hmmm, gotta go work soon! im late.. but im still bloggin here!
i miss jordie! evil grin

2004-03-24T20:08:00.000+08:00

jordie went me alrdy! hmmm, nth much juz slack talk corked and update blogs!! hahaha! miss him like crazy man.. sigh.. tml needa go work! anyways nth much left.. needa help my darlin do things.. evil grin

2004-03-24T10:02:00.000+08:00

*yawns* juz woke up not long!! nv blog for darn long alrdy ritez!! no time la.. cant use da com!! evil grin!! today im off! msged my boss she din reply so i juz take it as im off! heck it man!!sigh.. missin him like crazy.. hes in sch rite now.
i tink is either my nose is sensitive or im catchin a cold.. as im sneezin non stop since yest!! was packin my cardboard yest! and man ive tons of notes man!! hahah.. but still i din score well! wat da hell..
juz appealed for moblie and wireless computin.. tts karens bro course!! hahah.. and will be usin it for my back up course if i cant get into early chidhood!!
might be goin down smb later!! dunnoe yet!! feel like meetin him!! i miss my jordie! where are you!! hes in sch!! lame..

2004-03-22T13:59:00.000+08:00

everything is full of shit!! cant find a way out!! cant find someone to talk to!! a fuckin complete loser!! dun wanna call ppl up cuz i dun wanna trouble and irritate em!! guess i muz find my own where out!! if not.. juz gotta go ite den.. life.. IS FULL OF SHIT!

2004-03-21T13:18:00.000+08:00

bad day!din go church as i cant walk.. is freakin painful! but still i got da urge of goin out! sigh.. i miss him badly i wanna see him.. lalalalalala.. ive no ide wat im writin.. bad day!! wheeeee hoooo... ;[

2004-03-20T12:12:00.000+08:00

i seriously lost hope in everything!! im hopeless tats all i can say!! im a sore loser!! y cant things juz work out my way? y muz it be a hard way out?? sigh!! things are juz happenin too fast i cant take it!! and dun ask me bout my postin as i wont say it AT ALL!!.. you juz gotta find out yourself..
sigh.. gonna meet up with auntie jasmine soon.. but i still have no mood to go out!! cant really talk to anyone.. is either dey are slpin or gone out!! sigh! FUTURE has been ruined!! theres no point to live on eh!! hmmm.. if seriously cant, i shall go ITE or juz die!! y is everyone gettin their first choice and i cant?? arghhhhhh..... everyone is gettin wat dey wan but not me!! i din.. for now!! sigh..

2004-03-19T22:58:00.000+08:00

im sick!! feel like pukin badly.. is like something is stuck in my throat!! fuck man!! din update for like freakin nearly a week!! my day is DARN FUCKED UP!!! went to my grams place as my mom is not workin.. and i cant go out with jordie.. sorry darlin..
sigh.. my head is spinnin like crazy.. *PHEW* wanted to get a NEW phone juz now.. but hell.. its OUT OF STOCK!! DARN HELL.. y muz it be today tat is OUT of STOCK??
no mood to blog any longer.. i wanna puke badly but can!! tink im havin some kinda eatin disorder.. i cant eat much.. all shld i say i always skip meals!! heck it la.. something is gonna happen in my body.. darn it.. i cant be sufferin fr bullimia nervosa can i?? HELL NO!!!
anyways, you take care darlin.. drink lotsa water eh!! smilez

2004-03-15T11:49:00.000+08:00

im shortlisted for early childhood!!! yippy!!! anyhows, gotta give tuition later!! sian 1/2!! hmmm, now jordie muz be on his way to see da doc alrdy eh.. really hope he will get well soon!! x)
yest was a fun day man!! went for seans bdae party!! hes hell freakin rich and da food was great too!! evil grin.. before tat i went to meet my darlin.. hhaha... miss him so badly man as i din see him for quite a while alrdy!! love you darlin.. took cab fr his place to taka! fast and cheap!! hhaa
halfway thru da party, me, my bro and cara's bro evan, were so bored tat we went out to explore da other houses!! and wow.. dey are super nice lo.. swimmin pool, see thru glass panel window.. is like hell, im in another world! hahaha..

2004-03-14T14:44:00.000+08:00

usin da com half way.. and im cryin rite now.. my head is so pain.. i cant control da tears. it juz flow down.. fuck man!! i hate myself.. sobs

2004-03-14T11:49:00.000+08:00

hell!! nv log on for quite some time!! freakin days are darn bad!! nv go church today AGAIN!! but i went yest.. for da youth service and bloody tootz, all my kors pang seh me!! -darts- called em, one in gym, da other goin breakin, den i cant find da rest!! arghh!! nvm man!! is okiez one!! talked to jordie on da phone for past 2 nites.. was great.. misses his voice darn much!! nv see him for like 4 freakin days!! GOD!!
went mk steamboat with my bro, caras bro kevin and melvin!! only gal there, so da whole time i was eatin and msgin jordie.. only at times den i join in da conversation onli.. other den tat, da food was great!! maybe im too hungry i guess, as i din have my breakfast and lunch! dinner was my first and last meal.. was a shagged day yest too!! went to work. and hell da god darn radio cant work.. and da whole play for da next 30 mins no music!! felt darn fucked up!! den i rotted 3/4 of my life in church yest.. cuz ive no where to go and tat i cant contact any single frenz!! hell!! wenever i wanna find em i cant find em.. wenever i dun wanna find em, i can find em!! wats tis man!! -sheesh-
goin to seans bdae party later.. its his 21st bdae!! happy bdae dude!! sigh.. i still misses him like crazy.. im obsesse with him man!! -evil grin-

2004-03-11T18:52:00.000+08:00

rain rain and rain.. sigh.. i tink tis gonna last for darn freakin long man!! -BLOODY TOOTZ- my lining broke!!! cramps for da whole god darn day... and stupid me, i went to drink cold drinks and it was darn worst!! tml gotta work.. needa reach there by 10.. juz hope i can wake up man!! tml will be a long day tml i guess... always slack at work.. and now ive got a new boss!! darnass..
OOUCHHH... CRAMPS! y muz we gals have this?? why guys dun have?? cuz guys got a dog.. but we got a cat!! -evil grin-

2004-03-10T20:05:00.000+08:00

juz got back fr work!! went to pass jordan his NEW dc bag juz now.. hahaha!! youre welcome darlin.. smilez..
finally i went to work.. after so many days.. as usual, i slacked da whole day.. fold flyers, go out town, bugis for lunch!! hahaha
GREAT!! no dinner at hme.. so guess i shall go cook some food!! starvin man!!
miss him so so much.. though i juz met up with him less den an hour ago!! hell wats wrong with me man!!

2004-03-09T11:25:00.000+08:00

guess im gettin sick!! my whole body is hot.. maybe cuz i juz woke up tats y!! heck care la! caught in da rain yest.. heez.. rainin da whole day yest man!! luckily today, da rain had stopped and da sun is out!! yippy!! as usual, ive been rottin da whole day and maybe im gonna meet him... unless im not workin later!! heez.. sigh.. gonna miss alot of peeps man!! goin abroad for 18 days!! it seems fast but.. i really gonna have a hard time adaptin to it!! since da hours diff is like dunnoe hw many hours and tat, i cant contact him, cant see him, da onli thing i can do is to send mails! sigh! ;x EIGHTEEN DAYS!!!
anyhows, oh my god.. manda cut her hair!! darn bad man!! she told me she looks like a young boy now!! behind can spike up somemore!! hell... it means tat she looks like a BUTCH!! ARGHHH.. but is okie la.. as long as she likes it can alrdy!!.. short hair can oso be lovable eh! -evil grin-
love tis song to da max!! white flag by dido.....

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
I'll tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

2004-03-08T11:53:00.000+08:00

wat da fuck!! is rainin like hell outside!! juz came hme fr sch.. went there to begged for tesitimonal and da freakin clerk XL me! winner man! BITCH
otherwise was great! saw lotsa peeps!! -evil grin- hang around wth em and talked craps with em! den i came hme... wet!! as i never bring umbrella! -drats-
hmmm, gonna meet my darlin soon!! hahah.. been donkey days since i last saw him!! man! (stop bein a stalker bern!) hiaks hiaks..

2004-03-07T16:28:00.000+08:00

woke up like 10+ today den i went back zzzzz! hell! im havin migrane now!! freakin pain!! and fuck sake, i cant eat panadol or else ya will see me foam!! -pain- slackin da whole day as i din go church today! mom unwell, so din go! have me rottin in front of da come since noon! NO LIFE MAN! gonna watch honey tml!! cant wait! heez! (hw i wish he can come join us) talked to him (no one else but my darlin) juz now!! i tink his voice healed my migrane, but after he hung up, it was back to normal again!! *hell*
guess wat! i actually found someone tat look exactly like me.. other den jenn! hes a guy! dudz! look way alike! in fact i din noe till he tell me! hmmm, MAYBE hes my long lost bro! Drats wats wrong with me man! now hes my bro!! hahahah..
i tink im kinda retarded! or super retarded! -evil grin-
i miss him?? do i?? i do! -evil grin-

2004-03-06T14:07:00.000+08:00

great! everything is done.. all thz to eme! -evil grin- had a hard time findin perfect skin! god.. da last time i started bloggin was like 23 dec 2003.. hell tats d fcukin long time man! life?? wats life?? //slack//day dream//rot//slp//eat//slack// tats it! ive got no life.. hes slpin now.. got sport hits today! am i in love?? I AM!!! MADLY!!
nv go out today!!hell... first time nv go out on a SATURDAY. but still im goin church later!! -drats-